Monday, April 14, 2008

I suck

I suck at handling life apparently, which I think is one of the reasons I try and do so much - I think it will keep life from happening. Silly Io.
Charlie is still missing and I am sick with worry. R_ lives in the downtown area and it's very busy with traffic, trains, an interstate.
We contacted the microchip company but nobody has turned him in yet. I'm at home right now, trying to get my U.T.E.R.U.S. stuff together to ship before I run up to the next job. I just want to curl up in bed until Charlie comes home. I don't want to go be chipper and try and get the volunteers hyped up to walk unless they are walking to find my dog. Which they aren't.
I stopped by R_s house again to see if maybe Charlie had come home - R_ laid out food and his carrier. I called and walked a few blocks, but he wasn't there.
Thank you all so much for your thoughts. I feel like a heel because I haven't had time to even *read* all my blogs, much less comment. I love you guys. I promise I'll be back soon.

32 comments:

  1. Don't worry about us. Worry about you and A_ and finding sweet Charlie. We'll all still be here when the crisis is over. *hugs*

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  2. You have alot of tacos on your combination plate right now. Things will quiet down -eventually and we will keep happy, puppy thoughts that Charlie is found quickly and safely. I don't think there is anything wrong with assigning an additional task to the volunteers and asking them to *please* look for a cute pup named Charlie and if some are inclined to say his name. I bet you will find even the most cranky cold-hearted people have a soft spot for animals.

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  3. Saying a prayer that your Charlie comes home safe and sound - and Quick!

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  4. I don't think you suck at dealing with life at all - you have a lot of difficult and complex things happening right now. The fact that you're not just dancing through it all like a ballerina just makes you human. It definitely doesn't mean there's anything happening in the sucking-at-life department.

    Hang in there and know that we're all thinking of you and Charlie.

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  5. Hang in there, Io. I'm sure Charlie just saw a svelte poodle and is trying out his game. All will be fine.

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  6. Oh honey, I know how this feels. And it's absolutely heartbreaking. I'm wishing charlie a happy time cavorting and a very safe trip home very soon.

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  7. don't worry about us- just take care of yourself & I hope that Charlie is found soon! Maybe hang some flyers in R's neighborhood?

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  8. Aw, sweetie ... don't worry about us right now. Focus on yourself and on finding Charlie. We'll all still be 'round. Still sending St. Francis your way to make sure Charlie stays okay. And h*ll (is that appropriate?), maybe I'll throw a prayer up to St. Jude. You know, the patron saint of the lost ...

    Ack, G*d ... can you tell who went to Catholic school and who's mom is waaay too religious for her own taste?

    Hang in there, Io ... big HUGS to you!

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  9. You DON'T suck. Hoping that Charlie finds you soon!

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  10. Oh no. I really do understand what you are going through. I have lost one my cats (yes the cognitively challenged one) twice. Once it was for three nights and I wandered around neighbors back yards in the dark and wanted to stay home from work the whole time. Our missing cat flyers were what saved the day in our situation. It feels pathetic but it might help.

    It is o.k. to focus on only the priorities right now. We will be here when things calm down for you!

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  11. Oh no! I was so sorry to read this. I really really hope that Charlie makes his way home to you soon. I'll be thinking of you (and him) lots. Hang in there.

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  12. I'm thinking happy thoughts that Charlie will find his way home, soon! Either on his own, or with the help of a kind stranger. :-)

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  13. Oh, Charlie, where are you? Please come home soon!

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  14. OH NO!!!! I really hope Charlie turns up soon.
    You do not suck at life. Really. And if you need to drop everything and curl up in bed, then do it.

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  15. Hey, we've all been there. Life's too short to feel bad about commenting or not commenting.

    I am so, so sorry about poor Charlie. Somehow, the combo of high stress, the whole IF monster, and a lost beloved being is a real doozie. You're going to be discombobulated.

    Come on, Charlie pup! Get on home!

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  16. ARGH! I will continue to pray that Charlie finds his way home soon to you.

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  17. You need to focus on yourself right now, and there's nothing wrong with that. If it was one of my dogs, I would be devastated... I can't imagine dealing with that on top of all of the other stuff. You definitely don't 'suck at life'. Hang in there, we're all thinking about you and Charlie. ::hugs::

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  18. I hope Charlie returns soon. You don't suck at all, this is very stressful.

    Have you heard of petfinder.com? It's mainly a pet adoption site, but they post lost pet / found pet notices too.

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  19. You don't suck, you rock. Take care of you now, we'll still be here when you get back.

    Where did Charlie come from before y'all had him? Any chance he got confused and satrted walking back that way?

    xo

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  20. I'm so sorry that Charlie is still missing. And I'm so sorry that you feel like you suck, but I can assure you that none of us think that you suck. I can relate to the whole keeping-busy-so-I-can-ignore-life thing. I do that all the time. You should be assured that you aren't neglecting anyone by focusing on your real life right now. You are doing what you should, which is to focus on taking care of yourself, salving your own wounds. We, the united internets, will be there for you when you are ready to return.

    I'll be thinking of you and Charlie.

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  21. I am praying for Charlie's safe and early return!

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  22. I am so sorry to hear about Charlie. I hope you find him soon, I know how much you love him.

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  23. OH no, I'm sure you are sick with worry, but you do NOT suck. Dogs run. It's their own fault! I am hoping hoping hoping that Charlie shows up.

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  24. I'm so sorry about Charlie, Io. I'll be sending him "GO HOME" vibes and sending you vibes of peace and calm.

    Take care of yourself.

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  25. Oh hon, I'm so sorry, I have you find Charlie really soon xxx

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  26. Thinking of you and hope Charlie comes home soon, this is so worrying.

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  27. Oh no! I was so hoping he'd be home by now.

    He's so cute. It's possible someone just took him in.

    Poor Io. I feel so bad for you. For god's sake, don't beat up on yourself on top of all this. Just try to take care of yourself.

    Love you honey.

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  28. OH sweetie. I'm hoping and praying he makes it home soon! I've been thinking about you and Charlie.

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  29. oh lady I'm so sorry to hear Charlie is still missing. I can't imagine how worried you must be and wish there was something our collective good will could do. I'll just keep sending good thoughts your way. I'm so very sorry I can't do more.

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  30. i'm so sorry....i haven't been reading blogs the last week or so...i just read that charlie ran away. I'm so sorry - I know what it is to love a dog...I know I'd be devastated if my Maggie ran away...I'm so sorry, I wish there was something more to do...I hope someone finds him and turns him in. He'll be in my doggie prayers (right next to Maggie and my mom's Sammy)

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  31. Io did you feel the earthquake?

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  32. Just checking in and thinking of you....

    Sending happy thoughts your way.

    -K

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